Happy Birthday to Me?

In true winter solstice fashion I'll be keeping this first post short and sweet.

I have waited literal YEARS to post this stupid blog.

Yes... YEARS. I know you are looking at the pathetic aesthetics and very underwhelming post that follows and wondering why it would take anyone years to accomplish such a measly product. Well, I have wondered the same thing.

I have wondered, why have I waited so long to just make this thing happen? I have wondered, why does this feel so important to me and why am I trying so hard for it to be perfect?I have tried to recall, what was my initial dream for this space and why can't I remember it now? And sprinkled among all the wondering I have felt discouraged, disappointed, and defeated by all the once inspiring daydreams I had initially when I felt so called to write this blog.

Today, on my thirtieth birthday, I say goodbye to the last decade and hello to a new era. The era that I'm no longer just a girl with dreams but a woman that follows through with them.

My birthday present to myself this year is following through with an action I set out to do, even though it isn't perfect and is nowhere near as well planned and thoughtfully written as I wanted it to be. My present to myself is SHOWING UP FOR MYSELF however imperfect that may seem, and trusting that I will get much more out of an imperfect attempt than none at all.

The short and sweet of my dream for this blog is the simple fact that it offers me a space to write, a passion of mine that has been dormant for many years. The name, Solstice Baby, was born from a moment with God I had out of one of my very darkest moments two years ago when this idea was first formed. In the darkness, I asked God "WHO EVEN AM I?" and He tenderly replied by reminding me in a whisper "Chantel, you're a Solstice Baby" and that reminded me that even in the darkest moment, the light returns. God knew me well enough to know that I need very LITERAL reminders of who I am, and my dream for this space is to share what God has taught me about who I am, to maybe remind you who he says you are too. We are all keepers of Light in a world that is sometimes far too dark.

I pray this space will be one of inspiration, of hope, of love, and of Light.

Love, Solstice Baby

Happy Birthday <3